I really felt like a ramble today, I have other posts already wrote up and ready to be uploaded. But today I felt like uploading something a little more chatty, something you girls can really relate too. It's also currently around midnight on Saturday night / Sunday morning, and I find sometimes my rambling comes out best late at night. Anyway, moving on, you guessed it of course the topic is boys. Something a lot of you gorgeous girls I'm sure centre a lot of your time around, I do too don't worry.
Growing up as a huge Disney fan I've seen all the Disney classics, all featuring the famous true loves kiss. No awkward first dates or late night tears, one kiss and it's happy ever after. Pfft in our dreams. As a young girl I grew up believing all of Disney's classic films stories. I couldn't wait for the day my prince charming came along, whisking me away into the sunset. I wanted the fairy tale wedding and a one true love. Reality check - it's not that simple honestly I wish it was. Something a lot of us girls I'm sure have learned already.
Boyfriends are amazing, don't get me wrong I'm not here to slate and shame all boyfriends. I have a boyfriend and I love him to pieces, I wouldn't change him for the world. Before Henry I had a few car crash relationships, that definitely weren't a fairy tale. But I've taken a lot away from this and learnt a lot about boys. I had never felt the need to have a boyfriend up until secondary school when I was around 13 and got my first proper crush on a boy. He didn't like me back, nothing blossomed from this crush but I wasn't too bothered by this. Ever since this crush though I felt the urge to have a boyfriend. Like they were a brand new limited edition MAC lipstick - I had to get one ASAP before they were out of stock. I didn't seem to understand that I have my whole life ahead of me and the time will come. I strongly believe that good things do come to those who wait. There isn't much point having a boyfriend just for all the novelty bits. They're great but it's those moments when you can't stop laughing for hours on end together, or when you can sit in silence just appreciating each others company that makes being with someone you love really special. Not so you can go around captioning photos of you and him 'goals' if there isn't anything special there. Don't begin to worry yourself if you're sat there watching all your friends getting into relationships, meanwhile you sit at the other end of the table fifth wheeling. It just means somebody whose bound to put a huge warm smile on your face will come into your life eventually.
Have you ever bumped into an ex and had to make awkward small talk? Yep me too. After breaking up with my ex boyfriend on his terms, I became that ex girlfriend who was always checking his instagram to see which new girl he had wrapped round his arms. I think we've all been there, when you can't stand to see your ex happy and moving on, meanwhile you're still sat eating Ben & Jerrys straight from the tub sobbing your heart out. I feel you. It hurts when you think it's only you that care or you're the only one hurting. Boys can often hide it very well though, they don't always show the sensitive side. Don't give them the satisfaction of knowing they've broke you, or hurt you a lot. If you see them in the street walk past them with your head held high and a sassy strut. You've got this. If you let him know he's got to you, when the going gets tough for him he'll come crawling back. He'll assume you're still madly in ;love with him. But then you can be the one to tell him no.
Perhaps everyone needs to experience heartbreak to break their heart open to feel other things. Nobody said it was easy. It will hurt and you'll be a hysterical mess for a good week or two. Be gentle with yourself. Don't be mad at yourself for hurting, you are definitely not alone beautiful. I'm not a relationship expert and by no means are we all the same. This is just what I've learnt from my experiences so far.
" Never love anybody who treats you like you're ordinary" - Oscar Wilde
I'll hopefully be doing a lot more posts like this one, talking about girly situations and how to handle them, if you want me too that is!
Kiera
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